In Loving Memory

Click On the song before reading You hear about young people dying from car accidents all the time, and in our minds, it got programmed that it is normal to read in the newspaper of a twenty something that died, or thirty something the died.. but it is a different story when it is someone you know, and it is even more different when that person dies out of natural causes.. I woke up on Thursday with a text message from my cousin telling me to call him.. and I did.. the news he had was about a guy we knew (a thirty two year old guy) had passed away in his hotel room out side of Kuwait from a heart attack. This guy was very active, just started his own business, and it was picking up.. I bet you, he had so many dreams and life decisions, and they are all out the window, I started thinking of that guy.. he wasn’t married.. I don’t know if that was a good thing or a bad thing, I can see it as both, from one angle, he was still searching for the woman of his dreams, and he still couldn’t find her, and from the other angle, I think that it would have been harder if he left behind a loving wife and kids.. I started having these mixed feelings, and looking back, I’m almost the same age as he was, and I still haven’t done half of the things I wanted to do in my life before I die.. To me, remembering that death is inevitable, and it could be any second now made me realize that I need to live my life to the fullest.. I lived a great life in my past, and then for no particular reason, I put my life on hold, that news woke me up, because I think I went to sleep when I stepped my foot back in Kuwait, and just woke up 7 years later.. all my memories stopped after me coming back home, I can’t think of anything interesting I did ever since I came back.. no stories to tell, no impulsive choices, no spontaneous decisions.. I’m gonna stop.. cos I think I am not making any sense any more.